By Jeremy Essig
By Jason Robinson
By Hans Morgenstern
By Joseph Hess
By Peter Gilstrap
By Julia Burch
By Jeremy Essig
By Nathan Smith
In October, Love, Grohl and Novoselic settled their lawsuit, paving the way for the release of "You Know You're Right," which made its way to the Internet and rock radio well before its intended release date. The song, which sounds like trademark Nirvana -- or, as Grohl said in Spin recently, "like everything else we ever did, like, ever" -- has also spawned a much-requested MTV video, culled from previously unseen concert and backstage footage, much of it surreptitiously filmed by Love, who secreted a tiny video camera in her then-ever-present "medicine kit."
But "You Know You're Right" remains a single song amid hundreds of Nirvana recordings still kept in the Geffen Records vault and Love's garage apartment. Collectors have long hoarded the five-disc Outcesticide series, which contain studio sessions and live covers, as well as the six-disc Into the Black boxed set, which comes with a dazzling 24-page booklet. But there are recordings so rare they don't appear on any illicit compilation, and they will likely remain forever locked away in Courtney's heart-shaped box. Here are the rarest of the rare, along with whatever limited session information we could find using an ultra-secret members-only Nirvana fan-club discography site.
"Narcoleptic, Neurotic" (alternate title: "Little Pissant") and "Jesus Hello": These In Utero discards sound like so many other Nirvana songs: soft, loud, soft, loud and so on. They're most notable, however, for Cobain's use of chainsaw and harmonium, the latter at the suggestion of producer Steve Albini, who once told Guitar Player magazine, "I was doing everything I could to make Nirvana as uncommercial as every other band I've worked with, except the Breeders, because I wanted to fuck Kim Deal."
"Squeezin Teezin": Nirvana was fond of whipping out the oddball cover song on occasion, but this one proved most disquieting. The story apparently goes as follows: Sometime in 1991, influential BBC disc jockey John Peel asked the band to appear on his radio show. Nirvana agreed, but its members asked whether they could perform a set of covers, to which Peel agreed. The setlist featured several Nirvana standard favorites -- including the Who's "Baba O'Riley," the Doors' "The End" and Terry Jacks' "Seasons in the Sun" -- but also some bizarre choices, among them Cher's "Gypsies, Tramps and Thieves" and this little-known 1989 bit of hair metal written by Harry Cody -- otherwise known as the guitarist for the band Shotgun Messiah.
"Jeremy": A cover of the Pearl Jam hit, which was crawling up the charts when Nirvana recorded this in Belgium in November 1991, but complete only until the final chorus, when Cobain can be heard, off-microphone, complaining to Novoselic that he "won't sing this stupid fucking song, 'cause it's making my stomach hurt." Novoselic can be heard, faintly in the distance, telling Cobain to stop because "Eddie Vedder's a fag."
"Violet"/"Miss World"/"Plump"/"Asking for It"/"Jennifer's Body"/"Doll Parts"/"Credit in the Straight World"/"Softer, Softest"/"She Walks on Me"/"I Think That I Would Die"/"Gutless"/"Rock Star": Otherwise known as the songs that would make up Hole's second album, and first on a major label, Live Through This, released in April 1994. According to Internet gossip, this tape is the reason Courtney Love settled her suit with Grohl and Novoselic: The Foo Fighters frontman actually owns it in its entirety -- it was scheduled to be Nirvana's fourth studio album, after In Utero, and both he and Novoselic play on all the sessions --and threatened to release it if Love didn't settle the suit. In fact, test pressings of the Foos' new One by One contained a "hidden track" that appears to be a 1:32-long montage of the Nirvana "Won't Live Through This" sessions, as they've come to be known. Rumor has it Grohl gave Love the master tapes, so they do not appear on next year's Nirvana boxed set, tentatively titled The Hole Story.
"I Don't Wanna Be Your Yoko, Oh No": Taken from the band's soundcheck before its last American performance on January 8, 1994, at the Seattle Center Coliseum, this song was given to Cobain as a birthday present from Love. That would explain why it's so awful -- although it would later appear on Hole's third album as "Malibu," with slightly altered lyrics. Grohl and Novoselic refused to perform it in front of an audience, record it or even say its title out loud. (In the legal papers, it is referred to only as "I.D.W.B.Y.Y.O.N. [Human Nature].")
"Dolly": This song, an ode to Cobain's obsession with Dolly Parton, would remain virtually the same, though Nirvana changed the title to "Polly" after Parton threatened legal action when their mutual publisher ran the first line by her: "Dolly wants a cracker/Think I should get off her first."
"Rape Me"/"Too Shy": Recorded at the Palaghiaccio in Rome on February 2, 1994 -- the night Cobain tried to kill himself with pills and champagne -- this odd coupling featuring the Kajagoogoo hit likely stemmed from Cobain's feelings that "in 10 years when NIRVANA becomes as memorable as Kajagoogoo that same very small percent will come to see us at reunion gigs sponsored by Depends diapers," as he wrote in his diaries in 1992.
Aberdeen! Little is known about Cobain's planned musical tribute to his hometown, which was scheduled to be the debut release on his self-distributed label, Dental Records. It was, according to excerpts from Journals, to be a collaboration with Jad Fair, which would allow Cobain to extricate himself from his DGC contract -- in other words, "his Metal Machine Music," Fair once told Punk Planet during a rare interview about what Fair called Cobain's "career-suicide move." A handful of demos from Aberdeen! survive, among them "Surrey With Syringe on Top," "Pore Kurt Is Daid," "People Will Say We're in Rehab," "The Dealer and the Cowman Ballet" and, oddly, "If I Were a Rich Man." All are of sketchy quality -- indeed, "Pore Kurt Is Daid" consists solely of Cobain repeating the title for 34 minutes -- but "Surrey" hints at astonishing maturity for Cobain, with its 125-piece string orchestra, the use of tabla and theremin and a guest vocal appearance by Anne Sofie von Otter.
"Pine Tree Janitorial Service": This is a fake ad jingle, recorded on a home-studio four-track, for a company Cobain wanted to start with Novoselic. "We purposely limit our number of commercial offices in order to personally clean while taking our time," he sings, to which Novoselic responds, "We will suck up all manner of filth, muck, grease and grime." It would later resurface during the Nevermind sessions as "Shoot Up While You Work," with drastically reworked lyrics -- "suck up," for instance, becomes "shoot up."
"Losing Nirvana": Originally intended for inclusion on Nirvana's first single for Sub Pop in 1988, this song was Cobain's passive-aggressive attempt to inform drummer Dave Foster that he had been replaced by Chad Channing. Cobain and Novoselic decided to write Foster a letter instead -- which appears in Journals, the forthcoming collection of Cobain's diary entries, drawings and grocery lists -- though Cobain ended up using many of the lyrics to "Losing Nirvana" in his kiss-off to Foster: "We feel really shitty that we don't have the guts to tell you in person/But we didn't know how mad you would get."
"Get Free": Think this Vines song sounds like something Kurt Cobain might have written? Well, there's a good reason: He did, in 1991. But at the end of this recording, made by a fan during an in-store appearance in October of that year, Cobain can be heard apologizing for the tune, which he judged "an abomination" and vowed never to play again. "I'm too young for self-parody," he told the crowd before launching into yet another unreleased gem, "Highly Evolved," which he said "wasn't."
"This Bullet Tastes Like Lead" (alternate title: "Now I Can See the Back of My Head"): Recorded at the RAI Italian TV studios in February 1994, this prophetic number is a rare Cobain acoustic performance, much like 1990's "Opinion" from a Seattle radio broadcast. Like such well-known tracks as "I Hate Myself and Want to Die" and "Bleed," its title would come to bear special significance among the Cobain faithful, though its lyrics, a mishmash of nursery rhymes and Vaselines song titles, hardly hint at the torment the singer/songwriter must have been suffering in the months shortly before he committed suicide.
"My Stomach Hurts": This song, from the planned double album Cobain's Disease, is a fifteen-minute symphonic experiment in Neu!-like prog, and its lyrics, like those of so many other Nirvana songs, hint at the agony Kurt was constantly enduring -- the "burning, nauseaus [sic] pain in my upper abdominal cavity," as he wrote in the soon-to-be-published Journals. Among the lyrics: "My stomach hurts/My head hurts/My arm hurts/My leg hurts/My back hurts/My front hurts/My hurt hurts."