And, of course, there is Kendra Holliday.

The group has come together to brainstorm about sex, but it's much nerdier than that. Phrases such as "clearing-house" and "501(c)(3)" and "fundraising" are bandied about through the course of the meeting. (Although at one point someone does chirp, "You think you're excited? Feel these nipples!")

The group has just launched a website, Sex Positive St. Louis, at www.sexstl.com. It's been in the works for months. Many people in the group met through Holliday's blog.

The point, they say, is that the FOX News-approved coupling of one man and one woman married before the eyes of church and state who have sex for the purpose of creating children is just one spot on a spectrum of healthy loving behaviors adults engage in. As long as everyone is consenting and respected, anything goes.

People should be able to share their expertise and experiences, they say. After all, how else are you supposed to learn how to use a cat-o'-nine-tails or a cock ring?

"To me, Sex+STL is the vanilla people," Holliday says. "There's all these different sectors of people we were able to meet. I'm still scratching my head — those people who are out in west county — they are me, and they don't know it yet."

Holliday is leading the charge, which is part of why she's coming out: She can't lead while she's hiding.

Indeed, Johnny Murdoc, one of the gay guys at the meeting, says that the sex-positive community has a lot to learn from the gay-rights movement: "If you're not out, you're hurting us."

Some national experts believe that with honesty comes freedom.

"Being anonymous and being controversial opens you up to being exposed," notes Steinour, of EdenFantasys.com. "You have to live in fear that someone someday can spill the beans. They have to wait for the other shoe to drop. It's a pretty crappy tradeoff."

Tristan Taormino, a world-famous sex educator, author, columnist, and director and actor in pornographic movies, says that she's always worked under her own name.

"Anyone I went to elementary school with can find me on Google, and has," she says. "I can go on CNN and be debating some right-wing person who's going to be like, 'You're a pornographer!' I can be like, 'Yep, I sure am.' I reclaim terms like 'queer' and 'pervert' and 'pornographer.' Your words aren't going to hurt me because they're true. There is a level of freedom."

Yet Taormino is mindful that her situation is different from Holliday's: "I work for myself, so I have job security."

Holliday, of course, hasn't had that. She supports herself now with odd jobs, such as doing figure modeling and caring for an elderly man.

"In my wildest dreams, my partner and I will be able to help people, couples, become happier," she says. "We can help and make a difference. We really want to dig in there. I'm going to take a lot of bruises and beatings. I'm putting myself out there as a martyr."

She hopes the blog will reach even more readers — especially the so-called vanilla ones.

A business plan to monetize the blog, along with paid counseling for other couples, is in the works. "I'm really hoping there's going to be some rich old pervert or a sponsor or someone who'll come in and support me," Holliday says.

"I can't be self-actualized without showing my face," she adds. "I have to take ownership of this, to say, 'This is my face.' I'm excited for it. I'm scared."

Her partner agrees. "Her motto is 'open and honest,' but she's not being open and honest," Beast says.

But that's all about to change.

"When your face is out there," he concludes, "you're legit."

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